11 September 2017

Dear Grandpa :)

* We affectionately call our grandpa as "Pae", so I'll just go with Pae throughout this post :)

-September 10th, 2017-

Dear Pae,

I knew that this day would come. To be honest, I've tried to imagined about this before but nothing really came to my mind at that time. Simply because, I just couldn't picture myself living in a world without you, even though I tried.

At the time I received a message from mom this afternoon, I lost control and my sanity was gone for a few minutes. I had nobody by my side, I was all alone with my work, so I frantically touched one stuff to another in my room, trying to take a good grip of myself. I was losing direction, I didn't know where to head with my life. Panic, thinking about how I'd continue this journey without you.

I'm not exaggerating. You and mom, are the only reasons why I'm doing all of these. Yes, every single thing in my life, I've always had you as my number one motivation. All of this time, all I ever think is to make you smile, to make you forget about your pain even only for a few seconds. To make you proud. To make you believe that there are still so much blessings in your life, and I've always wanted to be a part of those blessings. Because I was also suffering when you suffered.

Yes, you. You're all the reason. You're the ultimate motivation. I've never really told anyone about this, but throughout this 24 year of super awesome life, I kept on thinking that I had nobody in this world except you and mom. And grandma. You've filled the half in me. And the rest is mom.

And yes it's true, that my life revolves around you. You're my number one childhood hero. My number one role model once I'm entering adulthood. Literally, my life is filled by the thoughts of loving and admiring you. And I bet you never know about this, right? I wish I had the chance to say all of this thing. I wish I just had the courage. But I know, once I really tell you this, I'd just cry a river. So that's why I've always been keeping it for myself. Oops, for the first time I told mom about it today. Tho I know, no need to tell, 'cause she knew that already.

Dear Pae, have I made you proud enough? Even if you might say yes, I won't stop still. Because you know, making you proud is sooo addictive and that's why I kept challenging myself to try harder each and every time. Tried to apply this and that, only to give you a good news or two. Only to make you and mom happy. None of you guys force me to do all of these. I'm the only one who keeps on pushing myself, and I'm more than happy, to voluntarily do this and that. For you both!

Oh God, losing the source of your energy is scary. I'm still figuring out a way to keep me motivated when my number one motivation isn't physically there any longer. Dear Pae, there are still sooo many stories to tell. So many coming victories to celebrate together. So many weird experiences to laugh at together. But now, I got to do all of that with mom only. Oh and maybe grandma sometimes hahaha.

I'm sorry if I'm too greedy. 24 years living as your granddaughter isn't long enough you know. I've said this a thousand time today. You must be so bored hearing it, don't you?

Eyes are tired right at this moment. Face has been all tear-stained since afternoon. Guess I need to rest. I'll write for you again as soon as possible :)

Al-Faatiha ❤️

August 6th, 2016

Earlier this year when opening birthday gifts from me!! 😊 I bought him two T-shirts.
Btw, ever since he had stroke, T-shirts and shorts were his comfiest everyday wear, so I got him some cool T-shirts to wear at home ❤️

One of the Tees that I got for him! Ah, how cuteeee! Major love on how the tee just fitted Pae perfectly! 😍



29 July 2017

Some Pictures from Harajuku Stroll and A Little Bit of Despondency

Sunday, July 16th, 2017

While waiting for my bathtub to get filled up

One word to describe myself this Sunday: freakin' exhausted.

I don't know, but I'm not getting excited about things this whole day. No, not just today, prolly some days within this week, I've felt this way. I usually felt so excessively happy and high, even for something that some people might find them boring. Maybe I'm just too tired, too sleep-deprived.

Oops, guess the hot water in my oh-sooo-mini-bathtub has filled up. Alright, I'll continue writing in a couple of minutes. I need to go to the bathroom now and I'll be right back once I'm done dipping. Anyway, I'm using MUJI's lavender-scented bath salt this time, it smells nice, and I'm genuinely happy right now. Omg, I guess I just got excited over something, right in this very moment!! lol.


Hi, done with the bathing business. Felt so good, the lavender bath salt has successfully shed away the weariness. Face is still a little bit red by the time I'm typing this, especially the bridge of my nose.  But I just sprayed tea tree water onto the face just now. So, despite the redness, my face is actually feeling so refreshed. Whoop, perfectness. Now this girl is feeling better, both mentally and physically. 

I'm not sure if the thing that I've just experienced can be classified as a mood swing, but my mental condition changed exceptionally fast. It only took a nice dip in a hot bath for 20 minute-ish. To me, that was relatively fast.

Well, I guess I need to take a break again. Be right back after dinner! πŸ₯˜ 


Saturday, July 29th, 2017

While waiting for my laundry in the dryer

Oh my God, time is scary. Don't you think? 

Two weeks ago I wrote that I'd be back after dinner. But then I didn't. I was too sleepy after dinner, then I decided to have a doze before going back to the blog. Turned out, the doze became a deep, deep sleep. I got busy on the next day, as well as the next next day, until I neglected this post and let it sit in the draft, until I realized that it has been two weeks long. Phew! 

Hella talented procrastinator when it comes to blogging lately. This definitely needs to be stopped. But how? Let me contemplate and figure a way out.

Alright, there's just too much despondency going on in this post. Shall we just jump right into the real deal on the photos I have here? *O come on Shabrina, you can even do it from the beginning of the post if you want to! πŸ˜›*

So, long story short I went to Harajuku on July 12th to meet my best friend, the one who's always been so ever-tempered in dealing with my never ending babbles, lol. We finally managed to try out Luke's Lobster, that infamous lobster roll originally from NYC, after failing to get one in our last meet-up.

 The lobster roll (below); The shrimp & crab roll (top)

They tasted... okay πŸ‘Œ 
I don't know if it's just me, but I didn't find it amazingly wow as compared to all the crazy hypes about this lobster roll in the world wide web. But yeah, being okay is still acceptable for someone like me who's not so hard to please when it comes to food. 

Have you ever tried the Luke's lobster? What's your take on it?

Right across the Luke's shack, we found this vines-covered wall with cute little lilac flowers thriving mostly at the upper part. "You must be wanting to take photos there, aren't you?" my friend asked. Of course the whole universe could easily know the answer even without me necessarily saying "yes". 

Done with the photo session in front of the vines, yeah, we had to stop taking photos because another tourist was lining up behind us while mumbling in a language that I didn't understand. But from her tone, I could decipher that she was complaining about us being too long 😌 oh, come on...

We continued walking casually. Getting in and out bunches of stores, touched many products, bought nothing, and ended up getting some shaved ice 🍧 in "Ice Monster" to close our meet-up session. We talked about tons of stuffs, as per usual. But this time was mainly about sexual preferences. Definitely my favorite topic to talk about.

That's that! I miss having another casual stroll already.

Anyway, July ends in two days. I did various stuffs this month. I'll try to write some recaps about this. Not to be cocky, but I'm satisfied with my performance this month. Hope August is going to be a great month too! Despite the crazy summer heat we're having here in Tokyo πŸ”₯

Well well, hope you're all having heaps of joy in this very month too! I'll see you on the next post ;)

In the meantime, go explore your neighborhood, dance to your favorite songs and eat lots of yummy desserts. Or just do whatever that will make you happy and love yourself even more! πŸ’Ÿ



10 June 2017

Sea of Nemophila Baby Blue Eyes: Is This View Even Real??!

May 4th, 2017

Hitachi Seaside Park, Hitachinaka, Ibaraki Prefecture

Whoop! My year long wait has finally come to a good end! So happy, i could say it a thousand time. And this is to tick off the last major item in "Shabrina's Flower Pilgrimage Bucket List", ladies and gentlemen! #owyea *wink* *wink again with more energy*.

Been dreaming of witnessing this surreality ever since last year

So, for those who don't know, these cute little blue flowers are called 'NEMOPHILA' or the 'Baby Blue Eyes'. These baby blue eyes had kept me waiting for the longest one year in life ever since spring last year. It was the time when Lina, my ultimate flower viewing partner found a one-day bus tour from Shinjuku to Tochigi for 'Whisteria' viewing and proceeded to nemophila in Ibaraki at the same day, in a freakin' good deal! I guess it was only around 10,000 Yen for these two destinations? Damn! πŸ˜­ 

But yeah, everyone loved good deal and they took action waaay faster then us. So we registered and the organizer kept us in the waiting list till one day before the departure day. But unfortunately, we had no luck for the bus tour eventually. Sad? Don't ask, just don't. This one goes without saying.

"Let's see the nemophila next year" said Lina and I to each other after we decided to drop the Nemophila from the list and chose to enjoy Whisteria instead. That "next year" thing finally  turned into something that was just around the corner! We finally managed to witness it last month.

The Wait Paid Off! Let's celebrate it with a wefie or hundreds!

We were so lucky, since rape flowers (Nanohana in Japanese) were in season too at that time!
I'm so loving how the yellow and the blue layered each other beautifully.

I'm beyond glad to find a partner who equally takes flower viewing trip as serious as I do.
Luv youuu cici Lina :*

Hitachi Seaside Park is indeed a piece of heaven on earth

This 190ha stated-operated park is definitely one very place that you should never ever miss whenever you make a trip to Japan, especially if your main destination is in the Kanto area! Walking for less than 10 minutes from the entrance gate, you'll arrive at the Miharashi Hill, the hub of this exceedingly vast park.

I guess that's the pacific ocean at the background 🌊

The 3.5ha Miharashi hill is painted in psychedelic bright blue Nemophila during Spring, fresh green Kochia in Summer and seductive crimson red Kochia in Autumn! One word: Breathtaking 😳 Here let me show you how the park looks like in Autumn → click click!

Here's the park's website for a more detailed information regarding on how to get there and some precious information about the flower seasons!  CLICK HERE πŸ’™

Anyway, the entrance fee is 400 yen for adult!

The only problem with this super huge park is that, the ground was sort of dusty. Especially  at the Miharashi Hill where the 4.5 millions of nemophilas were planted. 

Imagine when the wind blows so strongly and the dust will just fly all over the place. This happened all the time. I wore my black boots and they ended up completely covered in thick dust at the end of the day.

Not a very a big deal I know, but some people pretty much pay attention to their shoes cleanliness. Or maybe it's just me? I hope this "Too Much Information" can be useful for someone with the same nature, lol.

Spot the carp streamers over there? They're called 'Koinobori'! The children day's decorations that you'd possibly see all over Japan from April to early May :)

Spotted another type of Nemophila: The Yayoi Kusama-ish

Now they look more surreal with some polkadots on... Gosh.

Well, I guess that's all for today! I actually took tons of photos as well as videos, as per usual. I'm now in the process of collecting the mood to combine and edit the videos. Hopefully I'll get back soon on the blog with the dancing nemophilas video, or maybe just with another topic! 😘

Alright guys, I'll see you on the next post! I'm about to shower afterwards and get ready for some grocery shopping and dine out for today's iftar. 

Have a great weekend, everyone!



27 May 2017

Tokyo Stroll Series: The Vibrant Koenji Hood

When: March 25th, 2017
 Koenji, Suginami-ku, Tokyo

Some people might find their happiness, peace, or maybe inspiration at places like theme park, gym, library, bar, museum, mount, sea, coffee shop, furniture shop, kitchen, backyard, bedroom... and the list goes on infinitely. Of course, you're more than welcome to continue the list anyway! haha πŸ˜†

Except for gym and bar, I indeed found happiness at the rest of the places that I mentioned above. Well, I could say that I'm basically able to be happy just wherever I am. But when it comes to finding peace and inspiration, not everywhere that can make me happy, can give me that kind of "peace" or "inspiration", or that kind of therapeutic feeling that I need. Perhaps, you do also experience/feel the same thing.

One of those places that I'm lately aware for sure that it gives me inspiration and therapeutic feeling is: neighborhood! "Which neighborhood? what kind of neighborhood?" you might question. It could be just any! But you know, the more I'm unfamiliar with, the more thrilled I would be, because I'd feel like as if the place is spoiling me with lots of new findings, and pulling me to keep walking. New findings are always inspirational, and walking down without anxiety has always been so relaxing. So that's why, I can never have enough with this one.

I can't remember exactly since when I started to get obsessed with neighborhood strolling. But I'm pretty much sure that I started to develop this obsession and decided to religiously document it after I lived in Japan. Living as a foreigner is the key because I got to see differences on daily basis, and I can't help leaving them undocumented. Also, I won't lie, instagram plays a great, great role in shaping the way I see everyday life scene in a more showcase-worthy format.

Well, without further ado, because apparently I've gone too far already, lol! 
I'm suuuper excited to show you guys, one of my favorite neighborhoods to stroll in Tokyo... 
The one and only, the hipster and the oh so colorful KOENJI (ι«˜ε††ε―Ί)! ^^ Yay!
(Me screaming at heart: finally a Koenji Post!! It did take ages for me to finally post this, duh.)

1. The Vibrant Alley

 It was a sunny 10 am when I arrived at the district. I didn't google much, just because I'm an avid worshipper of a happy-go-lucky and an I'm-going-to-figure-it-all-by-myself kind of stroll.  

I was a bit hungry at that time, so I dropped by Mister Donut shortly after I got out of the station. Done with some donuts, I was kind of confused about which direction to go (this happened all the time, anyway), but then I chose to turn right after I got out Mister Donut, until eventually I found a shopping arcade named "Koenji Street".

After going straight and walking down some different shopping arcades, I finally reached this interesting alley that left me awestruck with the hustle-busle of this neighborhood. Decorated with vibrant colored paper lanterns all along the way, this alley instantly won my attention. Also, please take your time to look at and appreciate how beautiful those tangling power line cables are!

It was almost 11 am, but most of the shops were still closed. At this time, I kept wondering about the vintage stores that Koenji is famous of. "WHERE.ARE.THEY?" Till this point, I still didn't come across any, but I just continued to walk down the alley anyway.

And got amazed at these vibrant, color-blocked everything below...

Gosh, color blocking game's so strong here!!! Some are even collaborating very well with greeneries <3
So happy!

2. The Calm Neighborhood Area

While walking down the vibrant alley, I casually turned right out of curiosity and found this serene residential area. While the vibrant alley was kind of jam-packed, this particular area was the extreme opposite. 

According to my google finding prior to my coming here, Koenji neighborhood was rated as one of the best places to live in Tokyo. Although the reason about this statement wasn't written clearly, I could somehow understand it once I set my feet on the hood's ground.

Close distant to the station, bunches of shopping arcades as well as bars and live music venues surrounding it, green spaces... all and all, it's a very compact and convenient neighborhood. What's not to love then?

A cute tiny Lasagna shop

Spotted a coin laundry with some cute yellow washing machines inside <3

3. NA House by Sou Fujimoto

Here it is the "it" house within the hood that later I knew it had been featured in lots of websites, blogs, magazines, and of course it goes without saying, instagram tags! Honestly, I never knew that there would be an artsy house like this in the neighborhood, so it was completely a lucky find! If I didn't randomly turn to some random alley, then maybe I'd never get to know about this gem.

The second when I passed this house, I was like "Whoaaa... WHAT. IS.THIS!!". You know, this glassy house is very distinctive hence making it stands out in the hood. It's so transparent that every passer-by can easily take a peek at the inside, even when some parts of the house are covered with curtains. If you were here with me in this stroll, you could witness how silly I might look when I was struggling to peek every corner of this house. I might look more suspicious, rather than silly actually.

Again, according to my google finding (here), Sou Fujimoto always named the houses he designed by the initial of the house owners! Just like the NA here. Ahh, now I'm wondering if I could own my SH house  designed by Fujimoto someday in the future, haha.

Anyway, try google "NA House by Sou Fujimoto" and you'll find tons of interior pictures of the house! And even the sketch, if you wish to made another one for yourself. But after all, heaps kudos to Mr. Sou Fujimoto for his ever brilliant design! Now I'm officially a fan of him, and you know what, I already planned to hunt some of his works in the town for my next strolls! This is getting so excitinggg <3

4. Meet My Koenji Plant Friends

Okay, this might not sound 100% sane to some, but I never really feel alone whenever I stroll, tho I've always been physically strolling without company. The reason? I could easily spot my plant friends everywhere I go and feel connected in just a matter of less than a second! lol. I spent some times stopping by and staring at them, wondering what their names were, before eventually took some pictures as mementos. 

Alright, let's get the thing concrete here: I'm just particularly obsessed with Japanese gardening skill. 

During my entire stay in Japan, I'd say I've spent 25%* of my accumulative time here, being a total stranger, standing for a freaking long time in front of Japanese people's houses, just to admire their gardens with all the plants and accessories they put in there! Say it on my way to supermarket, station, convenient store... And of course it goes without saying, during my casual stroll as well! Literally on my way to just everywhere ^^

*just a random calculation and I bet you knew it already, hahaha

Anyone knows the name of the plants above? They look so seductive in the most elegant way possible! I wish I had a green thumb so that I could buy some and plant them in my balcony. But unfortunately, plants and I aren't meant for each other...

I'm not practically a plant or gardening enthusiast. Just like I've written before, I'm not blessed with green thumb or at least that's what I've always thought about myself. But I do visually obsessed with the beauty of plants in general.

I'm literally [hashtag] flowergasm right now πŸ’πŸŒΏπŸŒ·πŸŒ±πŸŒΌ

5. Vintage Stores!!!

Alright my friends, we finally get into the highlight of the hood: Vintage Stores! Woohoo~ πŸŽ‰ 

There's a large number of vintage stores in Koenji, that I couldn't manage to enter all of them during this stroll, mostly because some were still closed at that time. Also, I might miss some alleys and haven't perfectly explored the hood! Hopefully I can do more next time *fingers-crossed* 

So please pardon me, as I don't perfectly cover everything here, but I do hope this post of mine can give you a foresight of what Koenji's vintage stores do look like!

1. Samaki

This store focuses on womenswear and accessories. I fell for their earrings collections, especially!


hahaha, what a name.

This one was still closed at that time :(

3. Fizz

My kinda happy place. Everything's so girly and sweet here!

Look at those Mori Girl inspired stylings <3 Loveee <3

Hi! πŸ‘‹  It was just a few days before I drop my camera. So sad! But now the boys (the cam body and lens) have fully recovered <3

 4. Replay

This one is for menswear! As from what I peeked, they got some dope band tees too πŸ˜‰ 



This one's also for menswear!
I saw groups of fancy and stylish Japanese boys enter this shop. Idk why but I have a thing with boys who go shopping together, lol πŸ˜‚ 

7. Peep Cheep

This place is HEAVEN, to me.

I'm a sucker for pleated skirts, moreover if they come in vibrant colors and prints! And this shop "Peep Cheep" got 'em all! Everything's here literally vibrant and patterned. OMG.


Look at these cute one-pieces! 😭 

lol, my instastory πŸ’Έ 

8. Furugi Gaijin

The hobbyhorses did draw my attention, so I decided to drop by to take a closer look.

Just so you know, I found this shop's name a bit weird, lol. The word "Furugi" means used clothing, and "Gaijin" means foreigner. Umm, I just don't get it (?), lol. But they sell pretty cute stuffs, mainly on womenswear. I'm especially loving the coordinate on the mannequin tho <3


Womenswear, menswear and unisex.

Loving the vintage dresses and cute used yukata (summer kimono) here!


11. Other stores that I don't know the name

Well, well! I guess that's all about my Koenji stroll. Phew, finally I post it! I took literally gazillions of pictures, and wanted so bad to show it all off to you, so that's why it was extremely time consuming to finish this post. 

Those are a lot of photos, I know. I guess it's going to be pretty heavy to open this page, but I do hope you enjoy this particular post just as much as I enjoyed the stroll! If you have any question regarding this Koenji neighborhood or just anything that you want to know about Tokyo, just feel free to comment down below!

I might not have all the answers, but I'll try my best to answer everything! <3

Bye-bye! πŸ‘‹ 

p.s.: Ramadan Kareem to all Moslems in the world! How's the first day of Ramadan going on? I'm on period until today (I guess, I hope), so I missed the first day of fasting already! But insyaAllah I'll start fasting tomorrow, yay! 😊 I wish nothing but a meaningful Ramadan for all of us who celebrate it, and a peaceful and joyful month for everyone! 



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